The time has come to say “Goodbye” to you and I can hardly believe we are in this place. I thought I was ready but I really am not.
I have so many fond memories of you and your crusty, old fart ways! Your passion for what was right and wrong! The way that you would criticize people when they were doing things wrong and those people who you felt had slighted you! You always made me laugh when you did that! Really, you did! Trying to come off as all mean and stuff, but I never bought into it! I also have very warm memories of the loving, caring side of you that very few people saw or were aware of. How much you loved your children, grandchild and your wife. Family meant a great deal to you and it was the source of much pride for you! The way you loved to organize and have a place for everything. That garage of yours always amazed me. The STUFF you collected always surprised me and how you kept it all neat and tidy was a source of much inspiration for me. And you always knew exactly where everything was! I will always remember how much you loved being a referee! Especially the young kids! You were steadfast with being a fair, equitable referee and took great pride in doing it right. My boys loved playing a game when they knew their Uncle Harry was on the field with them. They took great pride in that! Simon and Jared have always looked up to you and they both have struggled with how they were going to feel about you being gone. I promise that Richard and I will always keep your memory strong for both of them! I know you loved them as much and they knew it. I also have images of absolutely gracefulness as you dealt with your journey. At first, the shock of the diagnosis and then your valiant fight through the path that had been laid out for you. No, you did not want it. You and Jill had so much more to do with your lives. But in light of that, you tried your best to keep a stiff upper lip and give the impression that you were handling it with such grace. Yes, there were many times of grace, but I know that deep down you were thoroughly pissed off that this struggle had been given to you. As would anybody…
I have tried to be strong and be the person people could look to during this rough ride we have come to know as “Cancer”. And I think I did an okay job in your honour. I just wanted your wife and kids to feel they had someone to talk to. Our families have had such a relaxed relationship. Comfortable, pleasant, respectful of each other and happy! I remember you and Jill being there for Richard and I when I had my own journey with Breast Cancer. I wish your journey had ended the same as mine. Oh, how I wish that had happened! As you went through each stage of your illness, I knew that it could have been me in that hospital bed. I never lose sight of that fact.
Now, we all have to say goodbye to you and we are not ready! We still want you here with us. I want you to be on the football field as the kids referee, I want my husband to be able to call his brother and see what his week has been like, I want, I want, I want!!!
But here we are…
So now I need and want to look in another direction. You are gone and after all the suffering I find peace in the fact that you are no longer hurting. You are painfree and hopefully in a far better place visiting with your Dad. Hopefully you both are having a great conversation and catching up. He is no longer alone; you are together. We are here and will always remember you my friend! Watch over us! Keep us close as we will keep you close! And never, ever forget how much we all love you and miss you!
Love your Friend,